What the fuck is Sex

Yep you read it I want to know what it is cause honestly Ive fucking forgot what it is and what it feels like to have it. Nearly 2 months and nothing. I've heard once your married it dries up but I thought yeah what bullshit... Now I'm fucking convinced it's right. Ive been told its cause I'm not assertive enough and I shouldn't leave it up to him but 95% of the times I get assertive or I ask its the same old crap in my face. I'm tired, I'm not feeling well... Amazingly enough (and it has been stated to me) that if he was having sex with other women we would have sex more often.. Gee don't I feel special.. to get any sex he has to have it off with other women.. he can jerk off to porn but not me.. Oh and yeah I'm not to take it personally. Whatever. Im sorry but how can I not take it personally.