I hate so much its ripping me apart

I hate and I hate the fact I feel that.. Its ripping me apart. I hate the person who is interested in Scott he thinks the sun shines out of her arse when she is just a fucking liar like so many others.. Oh she is so perfect so open and honest oh please someone choke me with the bullshit. She is a dirty great big liar she preaches how she is open and honest yet is so contradictory it isn't even funny. She says she wants to be my friend but i'm the one that has to contact her and then she goes to Scott I can't be friends with women as they play games... Whose the one playing games now. Don't tell people you want to be friends yet do nothing to create that friendship and then go around your back and say how you can't be friends with women cause of their games.. Oh and Scott thinks she is a goddess so she is always right makes me fucking sick to my stomach. And the flirting in the emails and how he wants to impress her with quotes from Anime movie.. And then trys to spout we are only friends..Bullshit!! friends that I know don't flirt with each other. How can you both be friends when you both want more go on tell me that.. You can't it isn't possible you will always cross the line even if you don't mean to. I hate it and I wish she would just piss off and screw someone else over.. Pretend to care about me and then while i'm in hospital make a move oh yeah that is so honest and open. I hate how i'm feeling inside kill me now and spare me the pain.